(Source: heybrohamwhatsup, via vintagekacie)
Days like this you lay in your bed wondering if the pain can get worse than what your feeling how do you cope with loosing you first love how do you let go of something someone that special I never though that day would come to where I had to say goodbye . I never thought it would be this hard in fact I never saw this coming my way .
How do you let go of losing your best friend your father figure your heart you other half your uncle how do you let go of a bond that was built since birth I promise no one will ever understand my pain when it comes to this It must be nice to not know what I feel like because it’s not easy dealing with the fact that you lost 3 people that had a big impact on your life 3 people you can’t let go of 3 people that caused heart and pain to your soul when you so called had to let go of 😭sometimes I feel selfish because i just feel like I need to have them close I feel like I need them at least one day but then what good will that make I’ll just wish hope and pray for another day after that day
Keep in mind
i have 3problems
1.how do you brush someone off because you dont want to talk i cant understand how you just met me and you always want to chill ?
2. it seems as if we play a tit for tat game you want me i dontwant you i want you , you dont want me i get tired f that we are clearly better as friends i guess right ?
3. i expected us to be distant due to where you were located but when you moved back out here i expected us to be more i expected us to speak more hang out more but nstead of more it was less and now you cant understand why i brushed you off whyi told you we cant talk well
1. im not a option n i told you that
2. you thought it was more important to hang out with you homies n not call me back rather than call me back when you were finished
3. now all yo homies booed up you stuck looking stupid because you lost a good one n they told you !
lol story of my life
everyone have a good day ill be in the freezing cold at graduation practice
it took me a while to figure out that i just do not want to talk to anyone and despite the fact that everyonr think i talk to different people i dont but then there always someone trying predict your happiness , i never ever said that yall shouldnt talk or that yall wouldnt work or that yall are odd i kept all that to myself because maybe you were happy . so just because im not talking to the person you want me to talk to is a problem.
im over it i cant wait to start over in az and go n with my life because once i leave all my exs and people i talked to are history lol no more
if i was in his place i probably wouldve jumped because of how im feeling right now !
really ?
its seems as if she really caught up in him we barely hang out on the weekends because shes with him ill be dammned if i force my self onto you because thats not me and ill be dammned if i cry but im just keeping it real i lost my bestfriend because shes caught up in the boy she like the only time we talk is when we need something or at school and barely at school
but besides that i can say im happy that tomorrow is the last day of high school and at this point im happy to graduate !
Unbelievable
How is it that you find yourself fighting back tears everyday. How is it that you fighting to always stay postive why is it that I’m hurting because I’m always looking out for someone else I find my self crying because of what others say and I wasn’t like that before I find my self insecure about my personality and attitude because someone’s always putting me down n when I mean someone I mean everyone what happens to the happy days the good day that I had. I find myself struggling to speak my mind I find myself breaking ….
